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"In learning how to achieve some emotional balance in our lives, it is necessary to be able to look at our self, our own inner process, and the life dynamic itself, from different perspectives.  It is this looking at different levels that is the process of processing.  Processing is a matter of looking at, filtering, discerning, getting clear about what is happening at any given moment in our relationship with life, with ourselves, with everything that is stimulating us."
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"A very important part of my process of finding some balance in my life - of learning how to see myself and how I relate to others and life more clearly - was to get clear that everything in my process relates back to me and my growth process.   I had to get past my codependent belief that I was doing something for you - or you were doing something to me."
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"Taking action is one of the most valuable tools in the recovery process and is very much connected to the principle of taking responsibility.  It is very important to become proactive in our own healing process.  That means that we need to align our will and our will power with healing instead of with the disease."
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"When I am taking care of business and owning my responsibility as co-creator of my life, at the same time I am letting go of trying to control things over which I have no control, then I can find a balanced place where I learn how to relax and enjoy life more today.  Sometimes taking care of business means forcing myself to take action."
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My Recovery Process and Taking Action


In my March update, I was processing through an issue.  Some people seemed to be a little confused about that update - and there were also inquiries in regard to my reference to forcing myself to take some action.  So, I started to write this new page about processing to try to explain the process of processing - and taking action - a little bit more.  What started out to be one article has evolved into three (at least).  This one is going to be about my choice to share my process on these web pages and about how I have learned that it is sometimes necessary to force myself to take action in my personal recovery process.

Processing through my personal issues is something that I did in the Newsletters from my original Joy to You & Me web site on silcom.com.  (You can find links to those Newsletters on the Joy to You & Me page of Joy2MeU site - which is listed on the Information index page, which also has links to recent update announcements - and on the Index Q & A page of the original site.)   It something that I do in alignment with sharing my experience, strength, and hope.  I believe it is very important for me to be willing to role model that it is OK to be human.   I also know that it is helpful for people to have me discuss how I apply the principles of the twelve step spiritual program in my life in a concrete way instead of just as abstract concepts.

On the Miscellaneous Topic/Former Online Columns index page of the Joy2MeU site, I quote from one of those Newsletters about the personal nature of my writing.  Among the things I say in that quote are these paragraphs.

"The thing that was the most damaging to us was the role modeling of the emotionally crippled adults we grew up around - the role modeling is what taught us the dysfunctional definitions of who we are as emotional beings.  It is vitally important, in my opinion, that we have some beings who are willing to role model what emotionally healthy behavior is - which includes being emotionally vulnerable at times.

Traditional therapy/counseling in this society is set up as a one up-one down situation - that is the therapist is set up as the expert who treats the poor unfortunate patient.  I happen to agree with something Ram Dass once said about this - "If you meet a therapist who thinks you are the patient - run!""

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"I am in process just as my clients are - just as we all are.  There is no hierarchy as far as I am concerned - just one wounded person/Magnificent Spiritual Being sharing what has worked for me with another wounded person/Magnificent Spiritual Being. I am doing what I need to do for myself, to heal myself - it doesn't have to do with anyone else - that it helps other people is just a bonus (and an opportunity to settle Karma)."

Once I started my Joy2MeU Journal, things shifted somewhat.  I started doing most of my online processing about more personal issues in that Journal rather than in my update announcements.  I had gotten feedback from several people that thought that my online processing was too intimate.  I had a good chuckle about that because the level of intimacy which I was processing at, in both my old Newsletters and in my recent online personal journal in the Journal, was/is not that deep a level.  Not nearly at the depth I process with someone in person who is safe.  (Safe meaning someone who knows how to be present with me and supportive - who will not judge me or try to fix me - unfortunately, at the level I am at, a rare and precious commodity.)   The people who thought it was too intimate were making a statement about themselves and their own level of emotional intimacy that really had very little to do with me.

The reactions I got from that recent update included quite a few thank you e-mails from people who understand the process and were reminded to be patient with themselves by my example.  It also included such reactions as: 

concern that I was worrying too much about other peoples opinions because of what I said about trying to communicate in a Loving way - when what I was really talking about was communicating in non shaming language.  I am powerless over anyone else's opinion of me and have had numerous lessons from the Universe that helped me let go of that one having much power.  In trying to communicate in non shaming language what I am attempting is to maximize the possibility of people being able to hear what I am saying - and not use it to beat themselves up.  We are so good at beating ourselves up that I want to minimize the possibility that anyone can use what I say to do that to themselves.  I am, of course, powerless over how people react - but I try to make it as clean as possible.;

several messages telling me not to be afraid - when what I was doing was processing through levels of fear so that I could take the power away from it.  I will talk more about that in the emotional balance article.;

a person I know who is quite emotionally unavailable said "You sounded human. Ha Ha." -  implying that perhaps I had made a mistake.  I, of course, took it as a compliment since part of my message is that it is OK to be human.  The more we can accept and embrace our humanity through taking the toxic shame out of the process, the easier it becomes to reconnect with our True Spiritual nature - and vice versa.   If my sharing helps you to be a little more patient in your relationship with your own humanity, then I have accomplished part of my mission.

I was not as clear as I could have been about the fact that I was processing in that update.  Which I am not beating myself up for because it was, of course, perfect - because it brought to my attention the need for this article.  I had written part of this article back at the end of March when I got those reactions.  But then I couldn't finish it and had to shift my focus to doing some redesign and some writing for my Journal.  The work that I did on the Journal, plus the most recent article I have written about spirituality for agnostics and atheists, both needed to happen before I could finish this article properly.

Get this, this is part of the reason that I Love this process so much, and how perfectly it unfolds (in the times when I am not hating it of course.;-)

So, my procrastination about finishing this article in March in response to some people's reactions to my Update in which I was processing about writing an article in an attempt to not buy into beating myself up for procrastination, was perfect to allow the process to unfold until such time as it was time to finish this article at the end of May (well almost, one article became three - and then 5 - and my trip interfered and now I am publishing them in July.).  In addition to that, there was a another right on reason I was not aware of for my resistance in March to writing the article about which I procrastinating - which caused me to process about procrastination. (I mention that in my latest update.  The structure of the article was not working for me - and I did not see that clearly until after I had published it.  My resistance was not that much about the content or the writing process.)

Integration and Balance - The Process

The process of processing is a dynamic that in many ways is easier to demonstrate over time than it is to explain.  Explaining it on an intellectual level is complicated and difficult because the process itself involves being able to look at multiple levels.  The recovery process is spiritual, emotional, and mental.  These levels are separate but intimately interrelated. 

In learning how to achieve some emotional balance in our lives, it is necessary to be able to look at our self, our own inner process, and the life dynamic itself, from different perspectives.  It is this looking at different levels that is the process of processing.  Processing is a matter of looking at, filtering, discerning, getting clear about what is happening at any given moment in our relationship with life, with ourselves, with everything that is stimulating us.

In trying to explain this dynamic here, I am going to be describing a relationship.

"Everything within the Illusion exists in relationship to the rest of the Illusion.  This means that communicating Truth about any facet of the Illusion can be done in relationship to a variety of factors.  This involves perspective through multiple levels.  It can make a great deal of difference rather a facet of Truth is being described individually, or in relationship to (i.e. God, objective reality, human emotional process, etc.), or if the relationship itself is being described."

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In the articles that have grown out of this one I am going to be looking at processing from the perspective of integration and balance.  In other words, I am going to be explaining this relationship with life and with ourselves, in relationship to - using the parameters of - integration and balance.

"Recovery is not a dance of right and wrong, of black and white - it is a dance of integration and balance.  The questions in Recovery are:  Is it working for you?  Is the way you live your life working to meet your needs?  Is the way you are living your life bringing you some happiness?"

(All quotes in this color are quotes from Codependence: The Dance of Wounded Souls)

A very important part of my process of finding some balance in my life - of learning how to see myself and how I relate to others and life more clearly - was to get clear that everything in my process relates back to me and my growth process.   I had to get past my codependent belief that I was doing something for you - or you were doing something to me.  Here is another quote from the Newsletter that is excerpted on my Topics index page.

"Which brings me to the second thing, which I believe is a Spiritual Truth - I teach best what I need most to learn.  I teach people how to Love themselves because I am trying to learn how to Love myself.  I learned to always listen to what I was saying because, though I have no control whether anyone else hears me, I do have the power to choose to hear myself - and there is always something in what I am saying that applies to me and my process in that moment."

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A part of my process is doing this writing - as well as the counseling I do in person or on the telephone.  I not only get insights into my own personal recovery process from my interaction with clients/other wounded souls, I also get insights into the overall process - that is, the dynamics of the phenomena: that is codependence; that is recovery; that is life in human body.
My mission in this lifetime is to be a messenger and teacher.  I have known since a very young age that I was going to write a book of Truth.  I didn't however have any idea what Truth was for much of my life.  It was only after I got into recovery that I started pealing away the layers of denial and lies so that I could start unearthing Truth.

As I mention in my book The Dance of Wounded Souls, and go into more detail about in the stories of my Spiritual Path in the Joy2MeU Journal, the most important book of Truth in my personal recovery process was Illusions by Richard Bach.  I quote that book several times in my book.  One of the quotes from Illusions that had a lot of impact on me was something to the effect that:  "Learning is remembering, teaching is reminding others that they can remember also.  We are all teachers and students."  (This is a paraphrase which I am using rather than pulling out the book and getting the exact quote.  If I quoted the exact quote, I would need copyright permission - which I had for the quotes I used in my book.  So this is a weak way of not violating copyright - my apologies Richard, I am sure you understand.)

I learn from every person I teach. I often do not know the answer to a question until I hear myself answering someone.  I can not attempt to answer a question I have never been asked (either by myself or someone else), or look at an aspect of the dynamic I have never looked at before, until someone or something brings it to my attention.  We all need other people in our lives in order to stimulate us to look at life - all the levels, issues, and facets that entails - from different perspectives.

I write a great deal about the importance of being open to looking at anything and everything from alternative perspectives in my latest article Spirituality for Agnostics and Atheists.  I was stimulated to look at some different aspects of spirituality by a client who is an agnostic.  I am very grateful to her for being my teacher.  It has caused me to see some different facets of spirituality that I had not previously brought to consciousness.

That I was stimulated to look at spirituality and spiritual integration from some different perspectives during the same time period that I was reflecting on how to explain the process of processing was of course perfect.  Integration in my definition is a necessary component of finding some emotional balance.  So, for me to be able to look at spiritual integration from an enlarged perspective makes it possible that more people will be open to exploring the approach to emotional healing and balance that I have developed.  The procrastination about finishing an article in response to queries about processing about procrastination was a perfect part of finishing that article (articles.)

Thus were the new articles The Recovery Process for inner child healing - spiritual integration and The Recovery Process for inner child healing - finding emotional balance born.  (To be followed by several more .)

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Forcing Ourselves to Take Action

"This is of course a dance of balance, because there are also times in which I need to force myself to take some action (which is a very different thing from trying to force an outcome.)"


Taking action is one of the most valuable tools in the recovery process and is very much connected to the principle of taking responsibility.  It is very important to become proactive in our own healing process.  That means that we need to align our will and our will power with healing instead of with the disease.

In our disease we were reacting to life out of a dysfunctional belief system.  We were playing the game of life according to a set of rules that do not work to bring us happiness, serenity, and fulfillment.

There is no happily ever after on this plane, in these bodies.  The goal is not to do life "right" in order to reach a destination.  True success is achieved by learning, growing, and enjoying the journey - not by reaching a specific destination.

"Life is a journey, a process - it's not a destination.  Life is continuous and constant change and growth.  We were taught to fight and try to control the change, to resist the growth.  We were taught to swim upstream, to go against the flow.  No wonder we get tired sometimes.

We were taught that death is a great tragedy and that we should spend our lives fearing and ignoring it.  We were taught to fear death and to never live life.  That's backwards.

Death is a transition, a transformation, death is a milestone in the longer journey.  It is not a tragedy to be feared - it is an eventuality to be accepted.  What is tragedy is not enjoying living while we are here."

Living can only be done one day at a time.  Today is all we really have.  If we spend all of our time focused on the future we will miss out on today.

We were taught to be human doings rather than human beings.  The ability to "be" here now, in the moment, is one of the goals of healing and recovery.  To be able to be present for, and live, in the moment is a gift (a present) that we can give ourselves by aligning our will and actions with healing.

That does not mean that being here now is the only goal.  Some people use "being in the moment" as an excuse to indulge in instant gratification.  Instant gratification is not bad or wrong, but if we are constantly empowering instant gratification we are not taking responsibility for being co-creators in our life.  Because of our childhood wounds, the majority of the time when we indulge in instant gratification, what we are doing is letting the child's wounds run the show - the "King/Queen Baby" within us whose mantra is "I want what I want and I want it now!"

Having grown up in dysfunctional, emotionally repressive societies causes us to want immediate gratification that helps us repress the feelings and/or nurture the wounded child inside of us.  Substances like Sugar, alcohol, drugs, etc., activities like isolating, obsessing, doing something (anything) rather than being in our bodies and feeling our feelings, are ways of escaping being in the moment.

What we are looking for in recovery is balance.  What we are doing in recovery is growing up so that we can relate to life as a mature healthy adult who is able to have the choice to be in the moment at the same time that we are owning our responsibility as the co-creator of our life.  We are learning how to be in the moment in a "stop and smell the roses" type of way instead of out of instant gratification.

Taking Responsibility for Being Co-Creators

We are co-creators in this life experience we are having.  That means that there are some areas over which we have some power and control and some areas that we do not.  The essence of the dysfunction of the condition of codependence, which is the human condition in my definition, is that we were taught to try to control things over which we have no control - and were not taught how to have healthy control over that which we can control.

"I spent most of my life doing the Serenity prayer backwards, that is, trying to change the external things over which I had no control - other people and life events mostly - and taking no responsibility (except shaming and blaming myself) for my own internal process - over which I can have some degree of control.  Having some control is not a bad thing; trying to control something or somebody over which I have no control is what is dysfunctional.  It was very important for me to start learning how to recognize the boundaries of where I ended and other people began, and to start realizing that I can have some control over my internal process in ways that are not shaming and judgmental - that I can stop being the victim of myself."

I cannot control other people.  I cannot control life events.  I do not have the power to force a specific outcome in my life in a way that will work to satisfy the need that I think it will satisfy.

It is possible to force an outcome.  Someone with enough money and/or power (political, physical, corporate, emotional, etc.) can sometimes force other people to do what they want.   It is possible to bully, intimidate, rape, take over, force out of business, steal, lay on guilt trips, etc., to get an outcome you desire.

It will not fill the hole in your soul however.  It will not slake the thirst you are trying to quench in a way that is lasting.  It will not ultimately meet the need which you fixated on that outcome to gratify. 

It will not bring peace, fulfillment, and True Love into your life.  Forcing an outcome is ultimately dysfunctional.

Likewise, life events cannot be controlled.  You can work and slave to buy the dream house - and have it wiped out in a matter of moments in a fire or earthquake.  You can scrimp and save for retirement - and have your life savings wiped out in a financial disaster, or die the day you retire.

There are no guarantees what tomorrow will bring.  Focusing all of our time and energy on the future is dysfunctional - not only because it causes us to miss out on today - but because it simply does not work to guarantee an outcome.

The out come (end result / destination) is what we are powerless over.  We can take action towards an outcome, but then we need to let go of the results.  We can plant the seeds of the garden we wish to grow but we cannot guarantee that the results will be what we envision - or will satisfy our underlying need.

Our job as co-creators is to imagine the garden, plant the seeds and nurture them, and enjoy the process that we are involved in today.  We are ultimately powerless over the outcome.  We do have the power to be present for the journey no matter what the destination ends up being.

If we are always focused on the destination, we are not living today.  I spent most of my life feeling like my life would begin when ____ - I got the money, or the success, or the relationship, or whatever.  That is dysfunctional and codependent and sets me up to be a victim of life and other people.

In order not to be the victim it is necessary to own our power to make choices.  It is necessary to exercise power in the areas that we have some power and control.

The things that I have the power to control to some extent are my own attitudes and behaviors.  I have the power to choose what actions I take.

Attitudes and Behaviors

I will be talking in the other articles in this series about how to change our attitudes and our relationship with our own internal process so that it is possible to overcome the childhood programming and emotional wounds.  It is very important to do this work in order to take the shame and fear out of the process as much as possible.  One of the reasons we have not been able to grow up and take responsibility for being co-creators in our lives is because of our fear of doing it wrong, making mistakes, not being good enough.  Those fears caused us to swing between the extremes of putting all our time and energy into being in control, or giving up all responsibility and any semblance of control.

I can have some power over my own behavior.  I can make choices about where to exert my willpower.  I can take actions that are aligned with Loving myself instead of always taking action to repress the feelings and escape reality.

In order to get sober, I had to start taking the action of not picking up the next drink.  I needed to take the action of going to meetings and calling my sponsor.  I need to start reaching out for help from people who were in recovery instead of fellow alcoholics, addicts, and codependents who would enable my disease and endorse my excuses.

I had to force myself to take actions that were aligned with recovery in order to make any progress in my recovery.  Sometimes, the action I had to take was to not take an action that I would normally have taken.  Sometimes, I had to force myself to take actions that I had never taken before. 

Often the action I needed to take was an action that would get me out of my head with all of it's obsessions and fantasies (nightmares) about the future - or regrets and recriminations about the past.  My tendency has always been to focus on big dramatic events in order to avoid the mundane, common details of life.  I would much rather fantasize about the future (in all it's glory or tragedy) than wash the dishes.  I would rather think about taking action than take action.

I was very good at thinking about taking action.  At a point when I was a couple years in recovery, I found some old journals from the days when I was still drinking and using.  I was amazed to find that I had made the same to do (tomorrow) lists then that I was making in recovery.  The only difference was that "stop drinking" was not on the list anymore.  That was when I realized that in recovery I was still trying to reach a destination.  I was still primarily thinking about taking action.  I still had very little ability to be in the now.

"Many of us have pursued healing and Recovery just like we did the rest of our lives - as if it were a destination to be reached where we would find "happily ever after."  We have gone to healers and psychics and therapists in order to learn the "right" way to do life."

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"As I said, the goal of healing is not to become perfect, it is not to "get healed."  Healing is a process, not a destination - we are not going to arrive at a place in this lifetime where we are completely healed.

The goal here is to make life an easier and more enjoyable experience while we are healing.  The goal is to LIVE.  To be able to feel happy, Joyous, and free in the moment, the majority of the time."

Taking action happens in the now.  I may still think about the future while I am washing dishes, but the dishes will get done and I will feel good about that at some point later on.  Taking action in alignment with being responsible for me and my life is a loving thing to do for myself.  Making the choice to align myself with delayed gratification instead of instant gratification is an important component in the transition to having a more Loving relationship with my self.

There was a point early in my recovery where tragedy was looming, impending doom was swooping down upon me, everything in my life was going terribly from my perspective.  I went to talk to a man I trusted and after hearing all of my woes, he had one piece of advice for me - make my bed every morning.  I thought he was insane.  But I started doing it.  And as the process unfolded, and the potential tragedies in my life worked themselves out, I would come home and see my bed made and feel good about myself.  I learned that taking an action for myself helped me to get through difficult stages in the journey.  Life unfolds - this too passes - over the course of time.  Worrying about outcomes does not serve to make my life easier today.  Taking action can make my life easier today.

Delayed Gratification

The concept of delayed gratification can - like any concept or principle - be taken out of balance also.  Always focusing on the future and never being in the now is delayed gratification out of balance.  Putting all of your priority on preparing for retirement and never stopping to enjoy life today is dysfunctional.

What we are seeking is balance.  Balance comes from aligning our relationship with ourselves and life with healing and recovery.   In recovery we are working on becoming our own best friend.  The more times during the course of the day that I can make a choice in alignment with healing and Love, in alignment with my own best interests, the more I will be able to trust myself - the more I will be Loving myself.

When I am taking care of business and owning my responsibility as co-creator of my life, at the same time I am letting go of trying to control things over which I have no control, then I can find a balanced place where I learn how to relax and enjoy life more today.  Sometimes taking care of business means forcing myself to take action.

Forcing myself to get out of bed and go to work.  Forcing myself to go to a meeting when I just feel like getting ice cream and watching videos.  Forcing myself to clean the house instead of worrying about the outcome of an event in the future.  Forcing myself to take a walk instead of zoning out in front of the tube.

This does not mean to "should" on ourselves.  It does not mean to shame ourselves into healthier behavior.  If we do that we will end up rebelling against the shoulds.  When I say "should" it usually means "I am not going to do this and then I am going to beat myself up for it."  That is aligning with the disease.

Aligning with recovery means thinking an action through to it's consequences.  Choosing to do something because we know that we will feel better later if we do it now.  Or choosing not to do something because we know there will be unpleasant after effects in terms of how we feel about ourselves. 

Aligning with healing and Love also means to remember and accept that we are human.  We will never do life perfectly.  Recovery is a process of making progress, not one of achieving perfection.  We are trying to increase the percentage of the time that we are making choices in alignment with Love.  It is not Loving to judge ourselves for being human.

Life can be very hard sometimes.  Being in recovery in a dysfunctional culture full of wounded people can be very difficult.  Working on getting sane in a world full of insanity is crazy making.  There will be times that we go for the instant gratification of getting a pizza and a bunch of videos.  Doing that once in a while is part of coping with life in the best way we know how.  Doing it often is out of balance.  (It also a reality that we sometimes have to have rigid boundaries for ourselves in certain life threatening areas - i.e. it is acceptable for a recovering alcoholic to choose the ice cream but it is not all right to drink;  it is not all right for a diabetic to eat sugar;  etc.)

We are trying to make progress in the percentage of the time that we make the choice that is for our highest good.  We will not be able to do it all of the time.  The goal is progress not perfection.  That there will be times we have to force ourselves to take action that is healthy for us is a natural normal part of the recovery process.  It is a vital tool in learning to be our own best friend - just as not judging ourselves for being human is a vital part of learning to Love ourselves.

Sometimes the action that I need to take is to do some positive affirmations to counter the negativity of the critical parent voice.  It is vital for me to take action to counter the victim messages of the disease, to be proactive in the process of not letting the inner child's feelings dictate my perception of reality.  Taking action is part of working the third step - and a very vital component in learning how to have some internal boundaries so that I can start taking some responsibility for, and control over, my own internal process.  Starting to have some Loving control over my own inner process is how I start to own my power to make choices about my own attitudes and behaviors.

"A turning point in my recovery came when I realized that the third step is a step of action.

The third step (CoDA version) says:  Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood God.  What I learned is that making a decision is not a passive process.  I need to make the decision and then take action based on the decision.  Turning my will and life over to God does not mean saying "You got it God.  I'll hang out here and wait for you to tell me what to do."

Working the third step is all about taking action.  Once I decide to try this new way of life in which I believe there is a Higher Power that Loves me - then I need to start taking action based on that belief.  I need to align my will with the will of a Loving Universal Force.  There is nothing wrong with will power, or self-will.  It is self-will pointed in the wrong direction that is destructive.  Once we admit powerlessness out of ego-self then we start accessing power out of Spiritual Self.  Spiritual Self is the part of us that knows we are connected to everyone and everything.

I have to use my will power to get myself to meetings, to pray, to take inventory and be honest with myself, to ask for help, to not pick up the next drink, etc., etc.  It takes an act of will on my part to get me in motion.  Once energy is placed in motion then the Universe responds."

1, 2, 3, and a 1, 2, 3 - The first three steps - article in Joy2MeU Journal


"Now, as I look back, I can see that internal boundaries were the key from the beginning.   Internal boundaries could also be described as self-discipline or taking responsibility or growing up.  They are what is necessary for any real growth to occur.  It is necessary for an alcoholic to start having internal boundaries in order to stop drinking - for anyone to stop any addictive, compulsive, or obsessive behavior.   In order to start changing our behavior it is necessary to have an internal boundary with the child in us who wants immediate gratification/immediate relief from the feelings.  In order to change what we are doing so we can change what we are getting - it is necessary to start having some internal boundaries with ourselves.

Terms like self-discipline or responsibility carried for me the shame and guilt of the dysfunctional society I grew up in - whereas internal boundaries was a much cleaner term, and a much more accurately focused term.  I came to focus on internal boundaries in my private therapy practice and in my personal recovery - and found application of the concept to be powerful and effective in starting to help myself and others become more integrated and balanced."

Wounded Souls Dancing in The Light Chapter 4
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